14
Mar
Posted by goldenlovingknitter in Family. 1 Comment
Sometimes you have to stop and face the things that scare you most.
I’m not scared of carrying quadruplets. I’m terrified of after they’re born. How does one go from having only pets to having four kids? Terrified of how to care for 4 babies all at once. It isn’t like a baby-sitter…no one is coming to take them away. How do you give 4 infants the attention they all need? How do you keep from losing your mind when they’re all screaming and you only have 2 hands. It isn’t something I can learn from a book. I have to wait for months to find out. Months and months and months of the unknown looming in the darkness. I’m excited…I’m thankful…I’m nervous. How do you stay optimistic when you have four coming, and you never got to try your hand at one you didn’t get to give back. It is one of the scariest thing I’ve ever faced in my life.
I read I need to eat every two hours and with a quadruplet pregnancy I need to eat 4500 calories a day. How do you eat 4500 healthy calories a day? How do you eat every two hours? AND WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU EATING? 4500 calories sounds a lot like what it takes to get on the Biggest Loser. I’m not really worried about weight. Ok that’s a lie. Some where in the back of my mind is the fear I will wake up after the birth of the babies to the headline HUMAN WHALE GIVES BIRTH TO QUADS. I get it though it isn’t all about me. I have to eat to grow healthy babies. I have to eat as healthy as possible.
I have found a lot of people need to give advice to pregnant people. My “doctor” on base told me while he wasn’t an OB he has three children so if I wanted to ask him any questions I could. This was right after he asked if I had seen an OB. How else would I have known I was having quadruplets? What did I go to the vet?
I think the time has come for me to go to bed.
10
Mar
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I can say that out loud to the internet now. I was outted on Facebook, once on the pregnancy and again with the fact that we’re expecting quads. The quads weren’t planned. They are in fact a shock.
Since most people want to know if we got pregnant naturally here is our story.
We tried on and off for 2.5 years, and when we couldn’t get pregnant we went to have tests done. When we both had issues the Navy doctor we were seeing gave us the lowest dose of Clomid. After three months of seeing the doctors and having the tests we started our first round of Clomid. I felt horrible on it. I was moody and just felt ugh! As it would turn out we only needed one month. I had a blood test after about a week of watching the pregnancy tests get darker and darker.
My first appointment was scheduled for a Tuesday, but when I started to have problems I had to go in early. As it turns out I had many cysts from the clomid, and one burst. The fluid from the cyst caused the ultrasound to show nothing so I was scheduled to go back on Monday. On Monday I went back for another ultra sound. The u/s tech didn’t really say anything, but when the doctor saw me in her office I knew something was up. She confirmed how long and how much I’d taken. Then she showed us the u/s pictures and started to count. yolk sac 4, now known as Baby D, wasn’t expected to make it to the next week. It was so much smaller than the other three she really didn’t think it would take. The next week though Baby D was there with a heartbeat, and this week he or she has caught up and the heartbeat is right there with the other three.
I’ve been so tired and feeling just ick. We’re now at 8 weeks 5 days, and hoping to continue to have a healthy pregnancy.
5
Mar
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Mar
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20
Feb
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You know the saying “Be careful what you wish for”? That’s no joke. Sometimes your wishes come true in an altered version…a crazier this isn’t what I had planned version. At any moment Patrick Dempsey is going to start talking about State Farm Insurance because I’m so there. Andy can always take my moment of panic and soothe me back into everything will be fine mode. Then he goes to sleep and keeps me up all night snoring. So when I feel myself start to panic I try to remember what Andy says and just breathe. Everything is good just a bit hectic.
Anyway I watched Nights In Rodanthe, and I have decided to no longer watch movies based on the novels by Nicholas Sparks. I love a good love story, but I’d rather stab myself in the eye than sit through another one. Seriously.
I started knitting something the other day. Something I haven’t gotten far on…1 row, but I’m excited about it! Plus I’m using yarn I already had stashed! I’ll share pictures when I’ve gotten more done on it.
You know what I don’t get the Silver Sonic XL. Why would you buy a product like that? Sure you can hear things far away, but what if someone comes and starts talking loudly in your face. Wouldn’t that be a bit painful?
29
Jan
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Do you have one, and what do you think?
I love books, but have recently started to accept the kindle as not a bad thing. I think I would need to know someone that has one or atleast see it before I could really decide. The price would also have to drop $359.00 is too expensive for me.
The reason for my change in thinking? My backpack I carry everyday to work is loaded with books. Books I am reading, books I want to read, and books I enjoy just looking at.
7
Jan
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Maybe it was the hours–days–of game play in a fantasy world that led to this, but I’m exhausted. I sit at my desk, and blinking converts into naps. Work this week is very quiet, and the silence lulls me to sleep.
I haven’t knit anything in months…maybe I should rename this blog. I am still a knitter though so I suppose I can leave it as is. My thoughts lean more personal and I long to leave the stress of the unknown behind. When I knit I think a great deal and sometimes I just don’t want to think about it all anymore. So I play WoW for hours and hours, or I read.
I should write more. When I write it helps get everything off my mind for a short while.
